Yesterday was my 6 week postpartum appt, it was pretty much a waste of time in my opinion, or maybe its that my doctor did not have a clue of what was going on. The appt was bad and good all at the same time. The bad part was the doctor…he walks in, shakes my hand and says “I know what happened with your pregnancy” and then he sits down. The tone of his voice when he said this was strange, it was almost as if he was waiting for me to elaborate on the subject. I was so confused at his statement and all I did was nod my head. So then he just stares at me awkwardly…after about 20 seconds he asks me “What can I do for you today” again I am baffled, what in the world is wrong with this doctor?! I wanted to say “Hello! Duh! its my 6 week postpartum appt!!” but being the polite person I am I said “Well its my 6 week appt so Im here” he so he went through the typical questions and then checked me and said everything looked perfect. So I suppose thats a relief. Afterwards he asks me “So I suppose you want to know when you can begin trying for another baby” in which I responded “Uh..yes” he said normally when a woman miscarries he likes to tell them to wait 3 months but when someone has a baby stillborn and as far into the pregnancy as I was he suggests to wait 4-6 months so the women have enough time to heal emotionally. Now that irritated me, because I will NEVER emotionally heal from the loss of my child, I will move forward and continue with life. The hole left behind will never be filled so it wont matter if we start trying now or in 4 months or 6 months or even a year, the pain is still there. I tried to explain to him how strong Ive been and that I have handled everything very well but he still said he would suggest we wait. I am not normally the one to go against doctors orders, but I feel ready. I feel a strong push to start now, I feel like April will be a good month. It took us 4 years to conceive her and naturally a woman is very fertile after having a baby so we want to take advantage of that. I did not lose my pregnancy due to a problem with my uterus or cervix or anything like that, it was due to my daughter having a chromosomal issue, so I know I can bear children, what she had was just random and rare. We so much want to either have her brother or sister in our arms or be having one shortly when her first birthday comes around. Now for the good news, they gave us a copy of her Chromosome mapping, it is so interesting to see her chromosomes on paper, down at the bottom where the ‘X’ is there should be 2 strands but there is only 1 and that is what causes Turners Syndrome. They said that 99% of babies with this abnormality do not make it to term and 95% die in utero before the 1st trimester ends, our daughter almost made it to the 3rd trimester so she was a strong fighter! Here is a picture of her beautiful chromosomes!